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I long to speak the deepest words I have to say to you； but I dare not， for fear you should laugh.
我想对你说出我要说的最深的话语，我不敢，我怕你哂笑。
That is why I laugh at myself and shatter my secret in jest.
因此我嘲笑自己，把我的秘密在玩笑中打碎。
I make light of my pain， afraid you should do so.
我把我的痛苦说得轻松，因为怕你会这样做。
I long to tell you the truest words I have to say you； but I dare not， being afraid that you would not believe them.
我想对你说出我要说的最真的话语，我不敢，我怕你不信。
That is why I disguise them in untruth， saying the contrary of what I mean.
因此我弄真成假，说出和我的真心相反的话。
I make my pain appear absurd， afraid that you should do so.
我把我的痛苦说得可笑，因为我怕你会这样做。
I long to use the most precious words I have for you； but I dare not， fearing I should not be paid with like value.
我想用最宝贵的名词来形容你，我不敢，我怕得不到相当的酬报。
That is why I give you hard names and boast of my callous strength.
因此我给你安上苛刻的名字，而夸示我的硬骨。
I hurt you， for fear you would never know any pain.
我伤害你，因为怕你永远不知道我的痛苦。
I long to sit silent by you； but I dare not lest my heart come out at my lips.
我渴望静默地坐在你的身旁，我不敢，怕我的心会跳到我的唇上。
That is why I prattle and chatter lightly and hide my heart behind words.
因此我轻松地说东道西，把我的心藏在语言的后面。
I rudely handle my pain， for fear you should do so.
我粗暴地对待我的痛苦，因为我怕你会这样做。
I long to go away from your side； but I dare not， for fear my cowardice should become known to you.
我渴望从你身边走开，我不敢，怕你看出我的懦怯。
That is why I hold my head high and carelessly come into your presence.
因此我随随便便地昂着走到你的面前。
Constant thrusts from your eyes keep my pain fresh for ever.
从你眼里频频掷来的刺激，使我的痛苦永远新鲜。